The Keys to my Personal Healing
The Keys to my personal personal healing are quite extensive but many very simple.
Without knowing why, I made a commitment to heal my life, (not the illness) and to help others, to help themselves, to do the same. Again, notice I say I would help others to help themselves. Sharing my story of faith remains a part of my growth and a valuable way I can support others.
I didn’t waste any time exploring the illness
My mission became one of raising Faith and lowering fear
I was willing to do what ever it took. Exploring Spirituality was the last thing I had in mind, and the last path I wanted to venture down.
My willingness attracted the support I needed: the right people, resources, tools, books and messages.
There were many other things I needed to act upon, which caused a lot of painful resistance but my commitment and my persistence kept winning the tug-of-war.
I had to shift my perception. I adopted the attitude: This happened for me not to me. This illness was my wake up call to show me that chronic fear was present, and driving my life long before the chronic fatigue and pain showed up.
I soon learned that it was not the illness I needed to address, but the beliefs which were at the root driving it. This saved me the time and energy exploring what was present, and I focused on finding the missing piece to wellness.
My journey was a constant battle of letting go, surrendering all of my old beliefs, and being open to remembering the truth of who I was, before I adopted those beliefs
It’s only in looking back, that I can see that my illness was a part of the greater picture in my request and quest to find myself. It’s like I had to lose who I thought I was, and all the limitations I put upon myself in order to find who I really am and the full potential that comes naturally with it.
Much later I discovered that we don’t have to get sick to know true well-being and wellness. All we have to do is to be our self right from the beginning, and let that be enough. Unfortunately many people have to go through some sort of crisis to wake up to this simple truth.
I learned that as I raised my faith, I healed and I became a natural conduit for others to find themselves, or to heal them selves.
I accepted that this passage of healing is a two-way street. As I give I receive.
I finally accepted that simple acts of kindness, (being my self) does actually make a significant difference in the lives of others: a smile, a genuine compliment or lending a hand. The only degree required here is a degree of faith in who I am is enough. It took many experiences to finally accept that being truly present is the most precious gift we can offer
Remember, I was raising faith and lowering fear, and all the while I remembered this I knew I had choices. I could give into fear or I could give into faith. And as fear was my adopted program it would have been easier to give in to that. But somehow Faith was pushing those layers of fearful beliefs up and out. Instead of holding onto those beliefs, all I had to do was to hold onto faith, as we went through a very uncomfortable ‘letting go’ process.
Over time, I remembered to check to see if the decisions I was making were coming from a place of fear, or faith. Being honest about this gave me more choices. Even if I was unable to get off the path of fear, I knew somewhere deep within that this path would come to another set of cross-roads and I could choose again.
I began to honour my feelings – all of them – and in time I could do this without judgement. This was a huge stepping stone for me. I began to do what I thought was impossible; I started to embrace myself and my own hurts. Self compassion replaced self pity. As I let go of playing the role of a victim, I was reintroduced to the inner victor.
And even today, when circumstances are less than satisfactory, I know that the presenting problem is not really the problem. I ask: What’s the truth in this? Show me the truth? What would love do now? Having asked the question, I let it go and I am willing to be shown the answer. And always the answer comes; not always straight away and not always without an inner fight. But, always faith wins and always the answer comes.
Using the power of prayer, forgiveness, gratitude and praise and discovering the importance of giving thanks for what I do have was a blessing.
I found the power in casting the problem upon the Christ within and going free. This means you have to let go of the problem or the perceived problem. The solution comes back in the form of an insight or as a direct healing.
I finally gave up making my self wrong, and thinking there was something wrong with me. Instead I began to accept that I am simply different, and that’s okay. I never once took the wrong path, because in end although I changed direction many times, I found my way home to wellness.
It’s funny, because I could say I learned a lot about my self. But in truth I feel as if I have simply gone through the process of unlearning and remembering what was always here, right under my nose, right inside … my Faithful Self
And here I am, all these years later finally accepting that real healing comes from finding myself, and from being myself, and the realisation that who I am is good enough and Godly enough
Thank you Marie